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Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Bitter, Party of 1

It's back.

The thing that creeps up on me like a cancer. I have no idea it's happening for a long while, and then BAM! I'm diagnosed with Stage 4 Bitterness.  Also like an illness, I now can see all of the warning signs I should have seen all along. The grumpy mood here, (extra) snarky statement there, increasing hostility toward certain people for NO REASON WHATSOEVER.

I have actually described certain people as being "in the line of fire" and said to myself (and a couple of others) that "I don't know what it is, I just am really irritated with him/her." But instead of taking care of the problem, I just brushed it off-- I'll deal with it later.

Right.

The bitterness refuses to stay inside me and enters the world like involuntary word vomit. I am working on it, though! Now that I have given a name to the little weird feeling I've had for a while, I can properly deal with it.
No worries!

Until I get it all worked out, I'll just spend a lot of time silent. 

I hate that rule of "If you can't say anything nice, don't say anything at all." Who made that up?


On a brighter note--- we leave for Disney in 114 days or so!!!! YESSSSSSSSSSSS
(Oh, I never updated you on Vacation Search 2012? Oopsie. I just did.)
I have to get rid of this bitter cancer before we go there, or I doubt they'll let me in!!!

I CANNOT WAIT TO MEET EVERYONE IN THIS PICTURE!
(I don't even care that they're just crazy people in costumes. I am SO EXCITED)